It seems my "Word of the Month" is "Friggin" at the moment - LOL
Well I went to the local GP this morning to receive my annual prescriptions for the Pill and asthma medications. Another new doctor, another lecture about 'have you wondered about exercising???' Yes I do wonder, alot, its fun, but 'wondering' doesn't burn calories sweetie! I got lectured about exercise, diet, healthy eating and then I told her I've been on WW since New Year and she seemed to not believe me. She well and truly didn't believe me after my blood pressure reading of 146/78. Farrrrrrrrk. I couldn't even blame my boys as they weren't going bonkers as per usual. After the past two weeks of knowing where I stand here, I shouldn't be surprised either. Bloody 146 though. How many calories can I burn when I head butt my head on a very solid brick wall???? Will that lower my blood pressure??
I sit here crying, not knowing how to lower this friggin' blood pressure. Yes I know, more exercise, less eating. And she's put the wind up me, telling me all about strokes and how 'the pill' really isn't helping me health wise. Yes it is! Its stopping me having more children that will drive me around another bend!!!
Frigggin, Friggin and more Friggin!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
29032010 - Hit a friggin' pothole ...
I really don't feel like blogging now. I did 10 minutes ago but someone 'intelligent' in BlogLand decided to stuff about with log-ins and Google and passwords and ten minutes later I am finally get here! If it ain't broke, DON'T FIX IT!
Well, its been a shocking couple of weeks for me. I've hit a huge pot hole and I'm still trying to worm out of it. I simply have had a gutful. Once again more important things have knocked my plans out of the way. I thought it would be nice for our family to go away, just for two nights for my birthday which falls on a Friday this year. Last year's birthday wasn't a success, so I was hoping to take my boys away to celebrate in our own way. We have never gone away as a family, our last holiday was our honeymoon way way way back in 2003. Our two night getaway would have been good timing, not in school holidays, wouldn't have been that expensive and then as per ruddy usual we got 'THE' phone call. In four short words "Family event, must go" Slap bang on the weekend we were to go away and because its family we don't say no, do we. I couldn't believe it, every time a plan starts to get off the ground, its knocked to the ground and smashed to pieces. Once again something I wanted to do, as a family, is blow torched and we stay home yet again. So any teeny weeny tiny bit of confidence I gained over the past 3mths was blow-torched to smithereens. Right now I seem to be on the bottom of the 'to do list' around this place. UGHHHH! So friggin' tired of the 'same shit, different day syndrome' here.
And if 'home problems' isn't enough to break me, there's toilet training a three year old stubborn hyperactive terrorist. It's just not happening. He gets the urgency of going to a potty, but its getting him to sit down for more than five seconds is the problem. Then he holds 'it in' and then has breakdowns when there's a waterfall happening down his legs. It just looks like there is no light happening down that tunnel at the moment ...
So the past two weeks, I've had far too much wine to ease the emotional pain. Food wise I haven't been that bad and I could have been better at the exercise but yep, I hit a big pothole. A week ago my weight shot back over the 120kg mark and I was 121kg and I wasn't surprised. On Friday morning just gone I was 119.9kg. I have to drill into the mental side of this journey and get my act together. I know where I stand on the 'priority' list in this family, and truefully I don't think its ever going to change. Ugggggggh, and just to wind me up furtherer our neighbour has been high pressure hosing for three hours and I just want to jump the fence and turn the blasted thing off!!!!!!!
So, it hasn't been the best of times around here .... desperately seeking light at the end of the very long tunnel.
Well, its been a shocking couple of weeks for me. I've hit a huge pot hole and I'm still trying to worm out of it. I simply have had a gutful. Once again more important things have knocked my plans out of the way. I thought it would be nice for our family to go away, just for two nights for my birthday which falls on a Friday this year. Last year's birthday wasn't a success, so I was hoping to take my boys away to celebrate in our own way. We have never gone away as a family, our last holiday was our honeymoon way way way back in 2003. Our two night getaway would have been good timing, not in school holidays, wouldn't have been that expensive and then as per ruddy usual we got 'THE' phone call. In four short words "Family event, must go" Slap bang on the weekend we were to go away and because its family we don't say no, do we. I couldn't believe it, every time a plan starts to get off the ground, its knocked to the ground and smashed to pieces. Once again something I wanted to do, as a family, is blow torched and we stay home yet again. So any teeny weeny tiny bit of confidence I gained over the past 3mths was blow-torched to smithereens. Right now I seem to be on the bottom of the 'to do list' around this place. UGHHHH! So friggin' tired of the 'same shit, different day syndrome' here.
And if 'home problems' isn't enough to break me, there's toilet training a three year old stubborn hyperactive terrorist. It's just not happening. He gets the urgency of going to a potty, but its getting him to sit down for more than five seconds is the problem. Then he holds 'it in' and then has breakdowns when there's a waterfall happening down his legs. It just looks like there is no light happening down that tunnel at the moment ...
So the past two weeks, I've had far too much wine to ease the emotional pain. Food wise I haven't been that bad and I could have been better at the exercise but yep, I hit a big pothole. A week ago my weight shot back over the 120kg mark and I was 121kg and I wasn't surprised. On Friday morning just gone I was 119.9kg. I have to drill into the mental side of this journey and get my act together. I know where I stand on the 'priority' list in this family, and truefully I don't think its ever going to change. Ugggggggh, and just to wind me up furtherer our neighbour has been high pressure hosing for three hours and I just want to jump the fence and turn the blasted thing off!!!!!!!
So, it hasn't been the best of times around here .... desperately seeking light at the end of the very long tunnel.
Monday, March 15, 2010
15032010 - Tah tah 120kgs ....
Well today is a VERY good day .... my weight has dropped out of the 120kgs range and into the 100-teens i.e. 119.4kg! No more 120something where I have been for at least a year. I was 119.9 late last week and this morning I am 119.4 and I feel so good about it. Initially when I first started this journey back in January, I said my first major goal was to be 119.9kg by my birthday in late April. Well I have just under six weeks to go to my birthday and I made goal number one! Let's see if I can get to 115kg in 5wks. In 2008 I had lost 15kg and was 115.8 for a friend's wedding, and of course I whacked all the weight back on again due to personal reasons. Also a next goal could be to say I've lost 15kg, the current weight of my 3yo son!!! And boy, I groan when I pick him up of late!!!! LOL
Energy levels are picking up every day and the god damned tummy overhang is shrinking and not as cumbersome as it has been for years on end. When I walk up the stairs, I don't feel that weighsome overhang that I had to drag everywhere. Well, its still there, well and truly, but not as heavy.
Energy wise, its getting better every day! Last week I cleaned up the pantry and on Saturday I weeded at least two sections of our backyard. The biggest section of our back yard has yet to be done, thats all set for a good dosing of weed killer!!! My gosh its simply too feral for me to weed!
AND my biggest 'achievement' is ... I have started to add jogging into my morning walks as of this morning. I know weeks ago I spoke of jogging to my music DVDs where no one can see me. But this morning I started jogging in segments on my walk home from school this morning. I'm not game to jog up the big hills as yet but for three segments of my walk, I JOGGED!!
Back to motherhood, we have recommenced toilet training ... no accidents yet but he won't sit on the potty for more than five seconds. Oh its going to be a lonnnnnng week ;0)
Energy levels are picking up every day and the god damned tummy overhang is shrinking and not as cumbersome as it has been for years on end. When I walk up the stairs, I don't feel that weighsome overhang that I had to drag everywhere. Well, its still there, well and truly, but not as heavy.
Energy wise, its getting better every day! Last week I cleaned up the pantry and on Saturday I weeded at least two sections of our backyard. The biggest section of our back yard has yet to be done, thats all set for a good dosing of weed killer!!! My gosh its simply too feral for me to weed!
AND my biggest 'achievement' is ... I have started to add jogging into my morning walks as of this morning. I know weeks ago I spoke of jogging to my music DVDs where no one can see me. But this morning I started jogging in segments on my walk home from school this morning. I'm not game to jog up the big hills as yet but for three segments of my walk, I JOGGED!!
Back to motherhood, we have recommenced toilet training ... no accidents yet but he won't sit on the potty for more than five seconds. Oh its going to be a lonnnnnng week ;0)
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
09032010 - Still lurking about ... :0)
Hellos, miss me much? :0) I swore when I commenced this weight-loss journey that I was going to blog every single day, noting down every single emotion I faced .... bwaaa ha ha ha, just didn't happen did it! Don't worry, I certainly haven't thrown in the towel and given up, I've just gotten stuck in some sort of 'zone'. I've had all sorts of 'issues' being thrown at me from every corner: friends ignoring me, other friends using Facebook to have shots at me across the world wide web instead of to my face and my youngest son is, well, exhausting. Numerous tantrums, refusal to eat dinner, destroying every thing in his reach ... today's 'victim' was his bedroom timber blinds ... he has already broken his brother's blinds. And don't start me on the wonders of toilet training featuring 'Conan the Destroyer' - LOL. Then there's schooling 'issues' with our eldest son, so when bedtime hits for them, its so hard to avoid a wine or three, but I'm doing okay. But I have hit a couple of pot holes in the past two weeks eg. copped the flu and ate some purely CRAPPY oil that had a couple of tiny bits of battered fish in it at the AC/DC concert. Ewww, I am still getting cold shivers reminising that truly horrible dinner. That night I wanted to have dinner at a local restaurant, however my hubby just wanted to get to the concert venue. At the venue I had a choice of greasy hamburger or oil with teeny weeny bits of fish and chips. WONDERFUL! Where's a goddamn Subway outlet when you need one????
Last week I didn't do much 'burning off' to compensate for the meal of oil! It poured rain for days here. I did do the usual walk up the hill every day to school and back and got wet several times but I just didn't do the 'big walks' that I usually achieve. Sunday we had chinese takeaway for dinner and once again my taste buds started to protest. I ate half my plate and could not go any further. I love chinese food but my belly no longer wants that amount of fat invading it I guess. Same with the 'oil and fish' at the concert, I couldn't finish that either, they all tasted horrible.
This week marks my tenth week on Weight Watchers, I think. I sort of lost count a couple of weeks ago, LOL, but I am pretty sure I am up to Week 10. Well I passed the two-month mark last week on the 4th. And I'm proud to say that I've lost ... drum-roll please ... 10.4kg! YAY ME!!!
Despite the many 'issues', problems or 'oil meals' thrown at me, I have learnt not to stay stuck for months in obesity hell. Previously lifes little/huge curve balls would be launched at me and I would fall and stay down and out. But now, I get back up again and start my day like its my first on Weight Watchers. Yeah I still have the occassional chinese takeaway and yes I still drink wine on weekends and yes I could have lost alot more weight if I cut out those two. But I am 10.4kg lighter than I was two months ago. Today I have more energy, this week I cleaned out our kitchen pantry ... its been years since I've attempted that! My next 'achievement' will be our over grown jungle of a back yard. My god it is feral after all the rain. I don't need a green thumb, I need a bulldozer!
My next WW goal is 119.9 ... fingers crossed that magic number appears on my scales by next Monday morn :0)
Last week I didn't do much 'burning off' to compensate for the meal of oil! It poured rain for days here. I did do the usual walk up the hill every day to school and back and got wet several times but I just didn't do the 'big walks' that I usually achieve. Sunday we had chinese takeaway for dinner and once again my taste buds started to protest. I ate half my plate and could not go any further. I love chinese food but my belly no longer wants that amount of fat invading it I guess. Same with the 'oil and fish' at the concert, I couldn't finish that either, they all tasted horrible.
This week marks my tenth week on Weight Watchers, I think. I sort of lost count a couple of weeks ago, LOL, but I am pretty sure I am up to Week 10. Well I passed the two-month mark last week on the 4th. And I'm proud to say that I've lost ... drum-roll please ... 10.4kg! YAY ME!!!
Despite the many 'issues', problems or 'oil meals' thrown at me, I have learnt not to stay stuck for months in obesity hell. Previously lifes little/huge curve balls would be launched at me and I would fall and stay down and out. But now, I get back up again and start my day like its my first on Weight Watchers. Yeah I still have the occassional chinese takeaway and yes I still drink wine on weekends and yes I could have lost alot more weight if I cut out those two. But I am 10.4kg lighter than I was two months ago. Today I have more energy, this week I cleaned out our kitchen pantry ... its been years since I've attempted that! My next 'achievement' will be our over grown jungle of a back yard. My god it is feral after all the rain. I don't need a green thumb, I need a bulldozer!
My next WW goal is 119.9 ... fingers crossed that magic number appears on my scales by next Monday morn :0)
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